Wednesday, March 31, 2010

31/03/2010

Today, he hav send me a sms.. He say, hope i can find my mr.right. At that moment, i cant stop on my crying. Until now, i also hard to control on my tears. Why it could fall always, and out of my control.. Crying, was cant slove anything. I try my best to stop it, but i cant do it..
Today, also will be the last day i contact with he.. He say that, when he are try to get back with me, he hav blocking by something. Thats my temper. From that moment, i know that, we will jux lose it from now..
I.m a person that afraid of the things, people i love and like wil leave me.. So that, i always make all the nonsense, even make the anger on a little matter.. From the moment we falling in love, i was in worry everyday. I scared i wil lost he, cause i know i.m reali love to he.. But from this relationship, i hav learn something. The things i love, i cant hold it with tight, cause they will leave me jux because of this...
Now, he oredi stop contact with me. I tink, is the time i should stop on this contact..
Times, wil help me let it go.. But i need god help.. I hope god can stop my crying, sadness, lonely.. I.m really getting to be crazy if i.m still be like this.. Even i.m in bath, working, i also will fall my tears without my control.. My moody make me did many mistake when i.m working.. I hate myself, why even my job i also cant make it as well jux same as my relationship.. May the god will heard from me and help me slove all my problem..

1 comment:

  1. Hello,

    I may not know who you are but I was is your position once. Try not to feel so bad k. Coz i will make all other people who love you worry. Love is always been difficult to understand not only by u but to all of humanity. Thinking of the past won't make you happy but only will make you more sad from time to time. Time will prove everything that when thing get long everything will be find, I may not be a expert of this kind of situation but as what I told you I was one of the love victim as well. All i have been trying to say is [ DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY], this is not easy I know. As people always say [ GOD WILL ONLY HELP THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELF]. I hope a piece of my advice will make you feel better.

    Cheers,
    Jeremy

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